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| About Me |
I can be very crazy and i can be very emotional. I love laughing hard, work hard, play hard. I listen to almost every kind of music but Pink Floyd is my very favourite. Pretty Woman is the movie i have watch numerous times. I simply loves to eat and get wasted.
 
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Wednesday, November 30, 2005sometime to think walking along the runway and pose yrself hell outta you really sounds interesting however, i prefer to do them privately on my own. this is where ONLY my peeps sees that I am the next MALAYSIA's next top model.. Muahahahahahahahahahaha!! in fact something is getting outta my brain these days. I hv my reason y.. First, nowdays I barely sleep good 6hrs a day. 2nd, I dun chill coz its not payday yet n Flex is freezing my pay for i dunno wat reason. 3rdly, the pile of work, i've been given is really really and I mean REALLY cracking my brain n worst still my eyesight are slightly damage due to the fact dat i spend wholly 8 hours infront of this damn computer. my gawd!! i wanna get outta here. and peeps i really mean it... hmmm... i now felt dat i am left in my world alone. i say my own stuff, i do my own stuff, i play my own stuff.. i am ???? i dunno wat i am........ city leave darkness at 1:56 PM Friday, November 25, 2005 Added a G-Shock just like d one in the picture above in my wishList. Practically, of coz its not minelar and find them much coolER than my 12yr old Tag. Its Ashnul's and its damn nicey xia. Fall in love wif it already. Anyone wanna buy me this for XmaS or watever occassion u can think of? Haha! i must be dreaming. But if kamaL were to to see this, I'm sure he'lL love it. For all i know he loves G-shock. Niways, Im happy to see that he is wearing the black G-shock during his Raya outing (saw them in Hern's blog *wink*).. i'm surprise dat he text me yesterday nite at 1.29am to check if im still awake, im sure he wanna chat wif me but too bad im already away in my dreamland and juz found out the msg a while ago. Ok, I dun wanna write longly coz i dun really hv anything much to write anD coz Life's plainly simple now... With a countable number of frenz, countable chill outS, UNcountable pile of worK and UNcountable timE for all I know. Its pretty messy but tying up here and there.. Opsie, some pictures juz for you GAL. Ain't really a pleasant working environment. Seksun has been so far the best. like i said before, this reminds me of SKOOL daze.  the typist chair we talk about
sueraya cubicle n precisely dats her
This is my desk, in the cubicle is Jennifer "Asst Program Mgr" So you've seen it all....
city leave darkness at 8:27 AM Tuesday, November 22, 2005 I couldn't believe how ignorant i've been in the world on entertainment. All these while I thought dat "Sepet" is juz any film but my perception is definitely wrong. Two thumbs up for Yasmin Ahmad. Its sad dat I watched them on pirated instead however not mine. Only if I knew dat she really makes real darn good films, I shud've watched them in cinemas instead. And I only knew them now after they've screened them like way months back.. I think shud be early this year if I'm not mistaken. "Sepet" is truly a sincere, the cast are all so natural. Watching it, I often find myself believing the illusion that the actors are really the characters they played. Its a truly Malaysian movie to be made. Although the movie touches on sensitive topics like interracial romance, racial discrimination, the decline of Malaysian movies and traditional values, it is evident that the screenwriter/director is trying to use this movie to break people's preformed assumptions. But what Sepet truly explores, is LOVE. Discarding any preconceived baggage, Sepet is actually a simple, honest, and moving love story. There's a certain tinge of clumsy speechifying going on here and there, and one senses that the director is eager to establish her humanist credentials at this point. In all, I say the story is very good, very sweet and and even bit sickly in places, the direction is understandable, the acting is perfect on the whole, the main characters are splendid in anyway. Its concept of potraying Malaysian life with an almost gritty reality touches me. I never felt like this before but now I felt dat its never a wrong or not a bad idea to be in love with an another race. Be it a "Sepet" (slit eyes), an "Ang Moh" or anything.. Peeps if you guys have not watch it, this is highly recommended. city leave darkness at 8:11 AM Sunday, November 20, 2005
I woke up as early as 6.30am. Its my dearest sis and fam last day here. Im gonna miss them. I took a lot of pix yest. oh! this time the pix are very clear coz im using sony cybershot with 5.1Mpx.. Thanks k.sue! n since the dgcam hv the video feature, I made Farhan says he Loves me when I videoed him.. Gawd!! I'm gonna repeat them again n over again after i'll save them on my hp.. Hmm, the traffic to S'pore real bad. k.na n d boys together wif me was stuck in the traffic for like almost an hour. We reaches S'pore around 10 from 8 that we start the journey. I really hate wif all the congestion. Wish all the cars cud fly.. Haiz.. We then headed to K.uda's place coz there's total of 5 big luggage and 4 cabin bags waiting for us.. We had 2 cars sending them to the airport and sharif came along on the 3rd car bringing my mom n dad along wif him. i juz hated the feeling when we had to part. i dunno why i broke down just now. i've never been all the times when they visited us. I was a bit emotional this time and I can't understand why i felt dat way. But tears start rolling my eyes when i told them dat I love them real LOADZ!! II mayb felt dat with them by my side, i felt so strong.. I knew i hv to be very much stronger even w/o them. But, Ya ALLAH!! i love them...
Okay enuff about them. I was suppose to visit Suriya after sending them however the plan cocked up. Sharif leave my parents wif me so i hv to bring him to whereever they wanted to go. and i juz wudn't want to screw more if i were to go to suriya place wif my dad wif me. Im so sorry dear.. I hope you'll understand.. Life has been better now i guess. "memoires" wif HIM started to fade away and its high time to really stand up and walk straight with pluckering lips perhaps. all of you, i knew i tried.. i'll never give up finding my perfect soulmate. where he resides i dunno but all i know i'll never give up finding him.  my all sweet pie Farhan  a group pix me n my sweet pie  the group wif more..city leave darkness at 12:12 AM Wednesday, November 16, 2005
The menace wif werk has started again and I dunno wats my reason for dat.. I've tried to rekindle but i find myself still searching for something which I dun even know it myself. Funny isn't it. Hmm... something juz dun rejuvenate and what or where it is, I dunno?? Plain and simple as that but I still dunno. Im gonna crack my brains out to think abt that no more coz I knew I won't be gettin the answer somehow.
Aside to the soul searching and mind bongling factor I hv in life, I still chill out these dayz. ;) Couple of snaps here while having supper at LC Catering wif "the sinclair" and 2 kakiS.. *wink*       city leave darkness at 8:22 AM Saturday, November 12, 2005
hey peeps.. im at the cc now wif "the sinclair" *wink*.. but can't do shit today coz the weather is too hot.. it hasn't been raining these couple of days. however, my life has just got busier i mean at werk. but the astrologies says that LEO's just work better under stress. Mayb i need dat. aside to that, i have another problem. But the problem is i dunno what is the problem I am thinking about. Its like i felt uneasy about it and yet still dunno what it is. Maybe i think i have unstable unconscious state of mind.
Nevertheless, I have something in mind right now. I was thinking of owning a property. Well, my sis and i went to the launching of a new apartment in our area. The perling apartment. For a 3 room apartment to cost me RM155 grand is a huge sum of investment. I really need to think about this. But I believe this is a good catch. Near my parents home and the place is like one grade lower than a condo. I think its cool. Well, I really hv to think about this. I've uploaded a new song.. in fact its for a new blog face but i juz like dis one though.. so peeps. enjoy.. city leave darkness at 9:15 PM Thursday, November 10, 2005I dunno why i wanted to write about this but I need LOVE.. There's saying that goes "Love is what makes you smile when you're tired".. I often ask myself what is love? And very often, I get it wrong and my approaches to love go hell outta haywire. Thats when I encountered 2 bad experiences with love. What mostly people really want more than anything else is to be loved unconditionally; to be accepted for who we are, and still be loved. There were times dat we will do crazy things, for the sake of love but it is actually the choice one makes to put someone's wishes, desires and needs above our own. Though I had not many experience with love but 2 relationships had made me feel LOVE in a falterin way coz whenever i put in the effort and whole-heartedly pour my love, it wouldn't last. Do i continue loving or do i stop loving and be loved instead? If it is to be loved, it should be both person to be at receiving ends. Well i think thats quite a difficult emotional factor to control. If to love means, being hurt and to be loved means, to hurt, how am i to search for love again? With love in our lives, we are empowered beyond belief AND I hope AND I pray that "my LOVE" will appear before me. city leave darkness at 1:36 PM Wednesday, November 09, 2005i've been rather aloof these couple of days. my obsession with Farhan somehow got me into this state of aloof dignity. Seeing his smiles, his frown, his tears, his everything just melted my heart away. This is life. But thank god i dun have a fluctuating hatelist these days. I dun wanna feel shitty. I jus wanna be happy.. i am no one hellava sick girl i juz wanna be normal. But my mood's good today and im certain it'll be for the rest of the day. but i felt mellowed for the time being which i dun really hv my reason. i dun really know what is my forte for now. I've always been that such happy-go-lucky kinda person but at this moment feeling mellowed is something that shows a good sign as well perhaps. i had one wish. i wish for time to turn back which of coz wudn't happen. i wish to be back during school times. I never really enjoyed very much at school coz i was so stucked up wif Sulaiman. Gross 6years man! I would hv got 20 to 30 boyfrens with dat time but i chose to stick around wif him. haiz.. i dun really chill wif frenz coz all my activities were restricted by him. If i were given the chance again, i wish my youth will be more meaningful. and perhaps really study hard to at least get a degree.But what's done is done. Life wouldn't be so tough and harsh if i didn't take the left turn instead of going straight. but watever it is reality is harsh. if not for harshness, i'd still be screwed. city leave darkness at 8:48 AM Tuesday, November 08, 2005Hey peeps!!!!!!!!! This is my 2nd day in ITG. Started to work already. But i hate the stupid keyboard. The keys are all so f**k up ... But nvm at least i've got a computer of my own already. Mine is different from the rest which i dunno why la.. Hmm.. niways.. i miss this space loads man!! Here are some pixs that I was suppose to put up in the last post but somehow the server got problems. Biasala using dial up mane nak same ngan broadband.. and i dunno if ITG is using dial up or broadband but tell you the connection is darn slow.. but better off than tortoise lar. oh! btw, being here i felt more like during school coz the desks are being paired up. So each of us got partners. haiz... funny rite. but i cannot comment much. its barely 2days so better keep my mouth shut. hehe!!.. I can't post longly though coz everyone can see what you doing. so i better hustle afterall its almost time.. i'll blog again once i cud. love you all.. muacxxxxxssss...  my all time n ever best sister..  me n my nephs.. seme muka dah berminyak. hehe!! at auntie's house in pulai perdana. the biggie house.. 2house in 1 man.  me n ashraf sinclair.. (kononnyer jer) haha!! city leave darkness at 5:05 PM Sunday, November 06, 2005Hellow!!! peeps.. i've not been here for so long.. Pejam celik pejam celik, its Hari Raya darr... Miss you so much.. I'm in fact over at my sis place and juz kinda use Along comp for this update. In fact, raya this year not that great though.. Hmm!! i got to go now.. i'll update you again.. i've got many ppl around me now. Hehe!! cioax...... muachxxx... suriya if you read this.. miss you loads.. i hvn't got my prepaid reloaded hence can't reply or give you any text.. i'm sorry dear.. love you... bye bye!! muachxxx... city leave darkness at 3:14 PM |
